2009/06/22

MEGALOMANIA

This is for Robyn


To begin with my argument I must start at some basics. Think of humans as machines. Humans are preprogrammed to do what "feels good". The whole of the human existence exists around this notion of feeling good. To describe feeling good I would best define it as the degree of positive feelings is greater than the degree of negative feelings. You can't deny that everything done in the human existance is to feel good. Those times when humans do things that don't feel good they think they are sacrificing feeling good for the time being to feel good in the future. The whole human existance is wrapped around this very notion.



To continue my point I will say that all things in lifes are tools that human's wield to "feel good". Everything before you in your day to day routine are things laid out for you to feel good. This is why we see people consuming alcohol, drugs, why music and games are so popular, why sex is so popular. It's all about "feeling good"; even school, social networking(and hold on I'll get to twitter), killing, going to church every sunday to whisper to imaginary beings, etc. All of these are conduits with which we try to gain positive emotions that overpower the negative ones.

Now finally getting to social networking and more specifically twitter - these too are tools with which human beings use as tool to "feel good". There are two main ways that people use these tools.

A) They use them to try and gain attention through people interested in them. If you notice every social network is way for people to try to grab their slice of individuality in the world. It feels good to be unique and something different, someone special. Humans struggle most of thier lives to try and carve identities of themselves into other people they meet, they want the attention and as I said it feels good. This is why those stupid "fan of" and quizzes and shit are popular on facebook - people are trying to be unique. So twitter is basically "here this is me, look at me here I am, I'm cool, I'm unique, I'm living" - people want that kind of attention so they use shit like twitter to gain it.

B) The people who are reading these "special snowflake" people's twitters are trying to gain social advantage. I hear a lot about popular people like CEO of google, and business, politics, sports, etc all their blogs are interesting people want to read them. People are not really 'interested' in that person, they just want to be unique like them - they envy them and so they pick up ways to inspire to be like them. They get ideas they use as their own or incorporate them into themselves - they read political blogs because political knowledge gives them advantage in their social circumstances - etc apply these to all other genres/concepts. They read blogs because they confer advantages for our social world. Basically humans feast on the biproduct of others just to gain small advantages in every day life.

So long story short, people don't give a fuck about what you or any one else twitter about, they just read it to gain ways to "feel good" through increased social knowledge. But the good news is you get to "feel good" in return that you are getting attention from others, that you can be a unique and beautiful snowflake in a world that is so full of fish its a feeding frenzy that everyone is a part of and no one knows about.

The same knowledge can be applied to why I am typing this and sending it to you. My socially conditioned self sais "I am doing it for your benefit" - but I tore away my socially conditioned self long ago. I understand that the reason I am telling you this is to feel good. I feel good that at least you can understand mostly what I am saying. I feel good that what I have said puts me on a level above 99.9% of the population. Hey look just by typing this to you I've used it all as a tool to establish myself as unique and special because I need that attention as it feels good, because I am human too.

Hopefully that mostly made sense, for me Twitter is just more bread crumbs into the feeding frenzy. I understand everyones need to feel good, I understand it all, I am not condemning anyone that if they use social networking they are scum. Only that no one truley understands human nature, understands why social networking is blossoming so crazily as it is. I play video games all day and I know I just do it for the feel good programming in my human nature.

So if you're twittering just remember that you're doing it to feel good, and people who read your twitter are doing it feel good, and when you read other's twitters you are trying to gain social advantages to feel good. And just chew on those bread crumbs and enjoy your life bBecause once you realize what human nature is all about theres no turning back: you either go sociopathic and kill people, or you embrace it as I have.

Chew away, and sometime maybe watch the pond from afar and see all the 7 billion fish swarming and feeding on the bread crums, and test the waters - maybe throw a few bread crumbs in yourself to see what happens to the closer fish. Thats how I get my kicks once in awhile anyways

Reuben

2009/04/28

A Rant

I hate people who don't give a shit when you're trying to get shit done and dragging you down with them. Theres times where I wish I was actually into drugs like the rest of my retarded brain dead fucking age group and half of my friends at that so I would stop caring and just enjoy everything. Just shit when people drag you down with them you know?

As for pseudo-intellects; well lets just say at time I hate the internet. Its either people who are )(*%)!%*)!% retarded or people who try to act too intelligent by making posts with as much fancy wording and thesaurus.com they can throw at it. No shit, anyone can use a thesaurus but trying to write poetry in a discussion or something doesn't help the reader get your point, you're just trying to show up your pseudo-intellectualism.

Enough raaaaggeeeee! I'm still on the job search, need one - poops : (. Saw some old friends today, wasn't bad - walked across town in the rain with my ipod and some new ambient tracks I picked up from blip. Good to pick up old loose ends sometimes (even if they are stupid rural stoner kids).

2009/04/25

I haven't forgotten.

Oh blog, you have been put to shame. I will wipe the dust of you and put your back on my shelf - at least for another night.

So where is it all to now? Finished first year of University, 86.2% GPA this semester, I think that makes it a 84.5% average for the year. Now quite 85%.. so close T_T.

Moving into a townhouse with my friends Jeff, Tim and Dave - I don't think it'll be exciting as they will think it is. but I really hope I get the basement because I love my personal space and really at the end of the day I just want to be away from people - I guess I'm introverted. These guys are cool though, gamers / geeks with strong work ethic. Things should be fun - looking forward to pokemon night or being able to play multiplayer console games with people any time.

For the summer I just hope to work - I need a job badly so I'm applying around and searching for a job. 4 months of work plus hopefully I can apply for some scholarships with my good marks and it should help to cut back on the money I need to pay for school (its hella expensive). Other than that just video games, maybe meet some people - I want to spend some time in my new home during the summer. And I want to visit my friends up in Owen Sound that I haven't seen for so long :/.

for the love life - LOL, I put something up on craigslist as a fun experiment and it sais specifically I just want to meet people not really have a relationship but I already have one person who wants to be just friends, sweet! Hey thats fun - hopefully they are cool.

As for the lady I actually like well I'll dive for it in the Fall when were proximal again - hope she has the time - I love everything about her, shes such a beautiful asian dork.

Playing WoW again... ugh... I blame my friend Matt Still - hes a great friend so its good we have something to do together for the summer.

Also I love blip - Come check me out and make one yourself. Its pretty much way cooler than twitter.

2009/02/22

pedopedopedo

Reuben says:
Man the best part about going back to your family's house is all the young children in the neighbourhood to hit on
~*Candy*~ says:
really? i think the best part is free food
Reuben says:
Thats a close second
Reuben says:
Yea I live in Hanover now btw
~*Candy*~ says:
haha ya thanks tips
~*Candy*~ says:
man this means in the summer time when i come to hanover we can go for icecream and then the strip club!! did you scope it out?
Reuben says:
No I did not check out the strip club
Reuben says:
Remember, I'm "pretending" to be a pedophile, so I'll have to make a comment here like "The women there are too old"
Reuben says:
But icecream and strip club sounds ok during the summer, I'll go with you
~*Candy*~ says:
ohhh right...so really you should have gone to a skating club instead..and watch them bend over to tie up their skates
Reuben says:
..... lol

Open my window, head floats out the door.

More dreams; roller blade singing apparently gets the ladies. Thanks for lunch Maggie - and Ransler you need to not get drunk during the day.

I'm going to leave my manly pink glowing box at home and see how that turns out (computer).

I want to have more time for my friends - I want to have more time to be part of the world. If I organize my time right I can do better at school and I can still maintain a fun active social life. Maybe work out a bit or take up some other hobbies like some D&D. I'll definitely have my desktop next semester so I need to fine tune some habits now without it.

I'm looking forward to this philosophy essay but not this environmental one. Ah well. I did well on my mid-terms so far 88%/92% so far with marks back. Seems like I just need to go that extra mile in places I need work.

I love life more everyday. I wish I could give out free hugs every day.

My last day home and its the last time I'll eat mac and cheese in a lot of months. nomnomnom! I'll miss Storm T_T.

2009/02/19

But I'm love in a shooting star

And she moves so fast - when she falls then I'll be waiting.

2009/02/17

Ah the time has come

When that ones over. Now I have to find productive time sink. Wish I could find a good free mmorpg or something - or some game like Diablo 2 to just hack out a few hours of every so often. Laptop friendly preferably. I'm leaving my desktop at home.

2009/02/13

Some days....

Reubenˉ says:
Basically what happens was I was out clubbing till 3am (electro Albion!), I came back and lied in bed till 6 (couldn't sleep), decided if I fell asleep then I wouldn't get up for my 9:30 seminar. So I played DOTA until 9. Went to class. Then it was free hug day so I printed out a sign before my lecture and just went to the cannon/UC for like 3 hours till 12:30 hugging over 300+ strangers of every colour and flavour (girl to guy 3:1) and then went to my psych experiment, ate came back here
Reubenˉ says:
I havent slept in 48 hours and I havent had any caffeine or sugar
Reubenˉ says:
Somehow I had the energy to hug 300+ strangers
Reubenˉ says:
Just another day in the life of Reuben